just before it ends


how's your christmas? mine was so-so. i got sick. again and again. and so what i bought with the prize i got from the darts game was one hundred tablets of vitamin C! haha. nevertheless it was fun naman. especially the crisps and gifts. haha.

anyway, i'm currently into Bo Sanchez reading materials, particularly the book you have the power to create love. and i am always moved by his lines. i mean, his words are so powerful...

emotions need to be felt. and then, you can let go. because you cannot let go of what you have not held! allow yourself to feel the pain. it's okay... allow God to embrace you in your pain.


ayun. galaw-galaw. baka mastroke. haha :-p yun lang. i'll make sense next year. i swear!


HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Song lyrics | Umbrella lyrics

a piece of me

it's christmas... at eto yung best time of giving. though it would be nicer if everyday sana, bakit nga ba tuwing christmas lang? mas marami ang bumabait? whatever. well aside from shopping, i'm interested on charity works this holiday. yes, at hindi rin ako SK dito o sinupaman. but due to the fact na i'm not an oh-so rich kiddo, i don't know how to start. well every 24th naman my family goes to munting tahanan ng nazareth here in mawaque and feed the orphans there. kahit konti lang yun, we know we make them happy somehow even just for a day... but this time i want to make it na galing saken. on my own ba. siguro nga i can't. pero if that would always be the case, how can i not can't? maraming ganong mentality ngayon. and shameful, ganun din kasi ako. laging, "saka na pag mayaman na ko". but what about the little i have now? if i consider myself less fortunate, what would then i call those street kids? it's not all about the money naman eh, partly yes. pero yung kaunting meron ako ngayon, kung ipagdadamot ko pa...then who am i to ask for more? who am i to receive more? so i guess, it wouldn't hurt if i'll give away a piece of me...

truth shall set you free

and i'm free! it's the best feeling...

thanks to you, friend (you know who you are). thank you for telling me everything. i owe you a lot. let me save you this time.

dear God,

"i am so thankful. God, You really love me. now i understand everything... why You never let things happen... i am so sorry... i should have listened to You. many times i heard You calling my name, but i never looked back. i was so persistent that i ignored You for so long. it's like i had been sleeping for three months (hello world! I'm awake!). but i still need You...I'll keep on needing You."


pray...it works

yes. i can attest to that fact! I've been courting God, pleasing Him to give me the answer... i prayed hard. i've been in the church every Wednesday, spending an hour there crying and begging Him to take my pain away. now that He has given me the answer, i realized everything. i've got the right answers. as in all. so, pray hard my friends.


forgiveness is a process

it's a long process. but as I've said, I'm not into vengeance anymore. I'm leaving everything to God. His plans are the best. what's left for me is to forget this nightmare. but man. how can i forgive someone who never asks for it? how can i forgive someone who doesn't show any trace of regret? i really can't now.

I have you

i have my friends...and we won't allow anyone to use us again. i love you all!

blown away

i was blown away... my... i should have known all these lies. i was a victim of my own conviction. someone uses me just to save himself. someone puts the blame on me even if i do nothing. and i couldn't blame the other party because she definitely believes this "someone". he even let her read my letters to testify that it's me who runs (correction, it's "ran") after him. and yes, in fact, that was sealed a month ago or so when he promised me something that never happened; when he convinced me to believe him that he can do it for me. of course, it was my fault that i trusted him. man. how could this someone do this to me? all those tears he shed, the nights he spent, the distance that he travelled, the days when he followed, the words he vowed... i should have known. i just hope he'll end his dirty game. you won. worry not, i'm not into vengeance anymore. i'm a grown up.

i was blown away... yesterday, somebody has sent me offline messages... i understand. she won't listen anyway. the game is over, you guys should taste the triumph. still, i'm sorry for your pain. that, too, shall pass... i'm no help but my prayers for you do. i hope.

i was blown away... i got chocolates for answering the question, "who is your crush?" and he too got one for answering the same question. yan ang connivance! haha

i was blown away... a friend of mine told me that if i open my heart to someone else, i have to make sure that he'll be the best. coz it surely can't bear another ache. so i'm taking everything slowly and surely. i will not allow another damn ass to ruin my life. but i'm ready to love again, but not now, soon... so please, wait for me. (sounds selfish? ooh.)

i was blown away... what does it mean? a sorry cake? a we're-so-happy-we'll-share-our-blessings-to-you cake? an it's-been-a-long-time-since-i-saw-you cake? or you-seem-so-bitter-have-some-sweet cake? well i guess it's an advance-happy-birthday cake. hahaha. whatever. thanks anyway. i didn't eat much coz i have a stye. no sweets allowed. i wished you never came. it just prolongs my agony.

i was blown away... i'm having a baby next year! yes. she is so lovely and pretty. baby jas... you'll be a year young by that time. i'll be your "mother" while your bilogical mom is away. let's look for a handsome and rich "father" ha. hehe. i'm so excited!

I AM HAPPIEST


happy with my new schedule


*friday 1-3 PM PE (aero/body bldg)

ok. it's sialongo not santiago

 

happy with my new classmates

2-6. nakakapressure dito. daming smart kids. sipag nilang lahat. parang walang social life yung iba. hehe. anyway, though i'm this suplada type, they still care to befriend me. and i appreciate them so much, esp now that ate sobs (my only classmate i know) had to leave school for a week. i thought i'd be a loner without her. i miss you, sobs! yep, i don't eat there anymore. kaso pag bumibili ako ng mineral water. tsk. pikit nalang ako. hehe.


happy with my old friends - ami


man. i love them! i can't imagine my broken life without them. i feel safe when they are around. i feel their over flowing love for me. i feel their care. they help me a lot. well i can't thank them enough for that. ewan. pero iba yung barkadahan namen. unlike yung iba, they'll ask you "napano ka, bat malungkot ka?". pero wala, you'll just say "wala lang. masakit lang ulo ko". pero pag mga "ami" na, pagkakita mo palang, umiiyak ka na kaagad. sweet noh. i always want to be with them. they are so real! as in. hoy! sana matuloy lahat ha. puno na gallery naten - puro drawings. i love you all! :)


happy without him




stop thinking about me. coz i'm better now. stop seeing me. coz it's better that way. stop telling me lies. coz i can see the truth. stop giving me promises. coz they're all meant to be broken. stop loving me. coz it's damn fake. stop coming back to me. coz i don't want to be used again. stop needing me. coz you already have one. stop being selfish. coz you'll lose all in time. stop playing games. coz you're a bad player. stop leaving her. coz you may not have her forever. stop saying goodbye to me. coz we're totally over.
===think you just did these===
now... stop showing me you're happy. coz i am much happier than what you think. stop getting even with me. coz you already won. stop hurting me. coz you already made me numb. stop making me cry. coz nothing comes out anymore. stop pushing me away. coz i'm way too far from you. stop stopping my world. coz it moves so fast. stop killing the love i had for you. coz it's just waiting to get buried. =)

sembreak drama

there are so much blissful and heartbreaking things that happened this short vacation. and most of them are my top secrets not all would want to hear (laughs). but i won't keep it down low this time [it's my blog!]...

GET DRUNK AFTER EXAM
i got drunk after our hap exam. and you won't believe it, may laugh out loud - i was down with 2 bottles! hahaha. i don't really drink. but we thought it was the only remedy left for us...so it was good. i thank zhovan for carrying me on her back. hehe. i was throwing up all the way to loren's place. tragic. ugh. well the sweetest part there was when my guy friends rescued me (tnx gino, e2y, tads).
oct17-18

NO SAD GOODBYE

i broke up with my boyfriend. i just felt the need to. i mean, i don't want him to keep hanging in there while i was having fun the whole time my phone beeps. he is cool. he was just like, "okay, just call me back. send me your number if ever you'll change it again". i won't.
oct27

CUPCAKING
no, i'm not. he is. well, got nothing more to say about that.
oct20-21&24

SHOPPING

i blame myslef for being such an impulsive buyer. i could have went to WC only if i used my money wisely. and now i have to suffer the whole month with my last peso. ugh. but on secondary reflection, i had fun. think it's enough? hehe
oct27

HIDE AND SEEK

my bestest guy friend saw me at the mall. but i must assume that he really stalked me. haha. i was alone there for 2 hours looking for some sale stores and he was calling me but i kept on rejecting his call (we had a small fight last night). i knew he was at the mall too. so i hid. hehe. fortunately, he found me. it was fun, i don't remember the last time we hung out like that. he helped me find a school bag, though most of the time i'll find him sitting on the husband's chair. rawr! we're good friends. =p
oct29

ALWAYS AT HOME

i had my hair cut. not really short. guess where we spent our dinner? yes. i was with my crazy friends when they dragged me to his place. shy. actually, they didn't have to - i badly needed to ppppf! hehe. as always, we're welcome to his place. it was an indifferent feeling being there - it's like "we're home!".
oct30

LAST PARTY BEFORE SCHOOL

a.k.a "the major drama"

it was jinky's 18th bday! and before we got there, he kept on reminding me to stay out of that girl. i really didn't get his point. i mean, so what if we'll bump into each other, am i not allowed to say hi? or would she pour her tea on me? he kept on warning me...and i didn't completely understand it till we were at the post party place, might as well at the coffee shop... OON she started babbling about a "topic" that was not so informative on our part (we're college students, dear). but that "topic" made everyone stood quiet for the first time, yes, including me. ok, there was tension, not on my part, on my friends' part. they were all looking at me, and if i could put it into words, they were saying, "it's ok. just smile". that was sooo sweet of them. anyhow, we did have fun!!! so much. it was like a highschool mini reunion. and i didn't realize how much i miss them until that night, though i was quite silent most of the time (damn i was really droggy, as in drowsy and groggy)... the "play" didn't end just there, tons wanted to drive us home, but there are buts - we have to drop by to somewhere they wouldn't want to see us getting in there. good thing bryan insisted to take the responsibility. sweet. but tons wanted, again, to just follow our car since he thought we were just heading the same road. sheesh, how can we get out of this trap?! bryan, knowing what's happening, drove his car really really slow. yeah. they were lost, and we finally got into that place. thankyousomuch bry! when we were at loren's place, we spent the last hours of the dimmed morning talking about what just happened to us. we were laughing to death with all those things we've been through in our lives lately - but we do wanna cry. tayne and i were thinking if we could get a life first before talking about it. loren found her fault of not being a true fighter. not so complaining about her ache, she wandered why her world never goes around. sucks. we even talked about our men's lives now (we love to call our boys barkada "ours"), likewise, they need a life! uuh. enough. i'll surely miss them all. and i certainly still have my best friends with me forever. i see now who are real - reeeaal tops. loren, tayne, and i know that tomorrow's still the same - we still have loren's place to come home and have our serious "talk" there, tayne's money to borrow to buy coffee we'll all share, mine's spirit they call their "hope" that would let us hang for like almost forever. yet, we know it's time to commence a new one. oh, ineedcoffee...

nov3-4

absence of a sign


the background: it's reasonably vague if God wanted me to fight still or lay down arms. i don't know. the way i see it, either attack would undeniably hurt! and to stop this agony, i need a reason to go on. a reason to beleive. but there were no alarm bells went off. pretty brainless, was i just too blind to see? nah. i really need a break free from this mental furrow. and i couldn't think of a logical way how to get my heart unstuck!

the key: just today, i asked God for signs. i'm not really an enthusiast or a fan [or whatever you may want to call] of soliciting for signs. something like that. but i got inspired by a friend who often asks for it, and tell you, it usually happens. i told God that if these things happen, it means there's still a reason to hold on. so, to see for myself [and before i get my brain ceased], i asked for the almost-impossible things...

1) any dough in the kitchen for dinner/snack
2) it'll rain hard
3) he'll call before 12mn

the first two surely won't happen because: for the past week, mom doesn't mind buying bread anymore; the clouds are fine and it's too hot, i mean, it ain't going to rain. what is most likely to happen is the last sign i asked, except for the fact that there's a cut off time... past evening, i was hushed in my bed (staring blankly on my hap book), and was already losing hope when suddenly, IT DID RAIN. the weird part there was, the rain was as hard as typhoon, yet, it only lasted for 10 minutes or so. the bewilderment didn't end just there...by ten o'clock, MY MOM WENT HOME WITH A BOX OF DOUGHNUTS. what the?! there's only one sign left - he has to call. but i guess, that won't make sense anymore...coz even if he does, it's already 2:16 in the morning. and so i decided to give him a call instead (ugh! breaking the rules again), then i found out that our telephone line was just cut off. that really stung!

the answer: what does it mean? does the absence of one sign mean i should move on and leave everything i used to have? would it hurt if God gave the last sign? if then, why did He let the other two to happen? ok. i'll try to answer my questions... well, maybe he was trying to call and really made it before 12. but look, God is so clever: He let the heavy rain pour, not to justify sign #2, but to actually withhold the "call" by cutting off the line. clear rationale eh? and the dough? He just felt filling in my empty stomach. =) God. i love You. well, i guess...i'm starting to make sense now. is this a sign of learning to move on? hope so.

-edited

thank you, bloggers... salamat...

my ALL TIME favorite movies & songs

NGAYONG NANDITO KA - afraid for love to fade

♫...and the more that i ignore this feeling, the more i find myself believing that i just have to see you again ♪
&i super love this pinoy movie. lalo na yung conversation nila sa parking lot (sayang, wala ako mahanap sa youtube non).sobrang paulit-ulit ko tong pinapanood.very true to life.pero somehow idealistic din kasi happy ending siya.. after many long years?... sigh



IF ONLY - take my heart back

♫ steal back my memories, i can't take it anymore. i've cried my eyes out, and now i face the years. the way you loved me vanished all the tears... ♪
again, how many times did i play this? the last time i watched this film [for the nth time] was last sunday, around 4AM [with "my freinds"]. & i love every lines from it -- full of love and passion. parang everytime i get to watch this,wala nakong gustong i-waste na time. time is gold.


WINDSTRUCK - knocking on heaven's door

♪ it's getting dark, too dark to see. feel I'm knockin' on heaven's door... ♫
i just cried... haha. i love the twist. galing. very unique sya. this film was introduced to me way back in 2003, and i can't count in my fingers how many times i've watched it since. nkaka-hook, sobra.

Marriage Life

the island
a night to remember... let me share to you my night with my lovely friends

i'll never forget this night. =) thanks faithie! twas a blast. mwah!

kadarating ko lang. and pose kaagaad.
uhm,nakalimutan natin yung pinya?



left to right: kae, toni, ivy, erika,
jinky, lhey, flor, me, shey, sobs



changed outfits except for me... pauwi na ko eh =(
that's pretty FAITH, the debutant.



ready to jump guys?
tagay muna naten... hehe



with ivy...
look at my left eye 'c



wait niyo ko...



i love them all,

the love of my life


dearest dad,

how are you there? your daughter is doing better and better. you'll be proud of me, dad. swear. anyway, you used to know everything about me (daddy's girl eh). and i miss that! i miss the nights when you check me on my room and see if i'm asleep or just pretending. i miss it when you do everything to wake me up, and say "bihis na nak, iwan na naten si seysey, mag-mamall tayo" ,and i'll rush to get up only to find out i was deceived. love it dad! i miss it when you carry me on your back not until 14y/o. i miss it when you don't let me come with you and will come home with my favorite McChicken, [and that was the last time i tasted it]. i miss it when you put money on my pocket while mom's not looking. i miss it when you play the guitar for me and sing...

♫ isn't she lovely? isn't she wonderful? isn't she precious?

less than one minute old I never thought through love we'd be.

making one as lovely as she. but isn't she lovely made from love...♪

...and there goes my dancing skills,i'll make you laugh. hehe. i miss it when we play chess, and the first time i won, i knew you planned it. (eeh i'm bursting in tears na) dad, i miss you so much! you know well my ambitions... flight stewardess. right. you know i love to travel around the world. and i miss the way you listen to me, and say, "nak, ibaba mo ng konti. taas". i miss my hot chocolate every morning (i'm into coffee now). i miss it when we both panick upon hearing my school service [your money? finish your meal. have you shined ypur shoes?]. i miss it when i come home from school, "i'm home!" and you're like, "mama, anong meryenda ni senyorita?". oh how can i forget, when you got mad because your carbonara went cold. and still remember when i called you while i was in the bathroom because mom got angry with me, i even begged you to come home. oh dad. i love you!

now, my life has really changed. i'm not the kiddo you knew before. i've really grown up and transformed into someone i dreamt of becoming. my perspective in life turned into positive ones. ofcourse you'll hate it when i say i'm in pain right now, but believe me, dad. i'm loving it. it helps me grow...

Lord, if this pain will make me a better person you wanted me to become...please, don't take it away...

i wish you were right here with me. you're asking me what i want on my debut? come home. that's all i want, dad. that would be your best gift! and promise me one thing: stay with me and wait for your grandchildren. let me pay your kindness, dad. wait for me. we'll all live together in my own palace. that's a deal! =)

i promise, you'll be proud of me. can't wait to hear it straight from you.
i love you so much!

i'll wait for you...

your loving daughter,
sey-sey

childishey
ooohh. im turning 18, i don't feel like a lady yet. brusto nga daw ako eh. i'm a sophomore college and i still do the same things i used to way back in high school...worse, grade school. look.


F.L.A.M.E.S

yikes! ginagawa ko pa toh. classmate ko siya this sem. ayun crush ko lang naman. hihi.


I STILL STALK
jami

sobra. 4year crush ko siya hanggang ngayon sinusundan ko parin siya. =)

GUMMY WORMS

super favorite ko pa rin toh. i still crave for this yummy!

what if she followed herY?


him: i have something to ask.her: i have many things to ask.
him: go ahead.her: do you...do you now love her?
him: i must admit that then, i was just using her... and now ("i'm not happy")...
her: (turned back and tried to hold back her tears) i know, it was me who pushed you to love her. i can see and feel it. excuse me for a sec...

him: you're ok?

her: i'm fine.

him: what about you... do you still love him?
her: ("you just don't know what's inside my heart") he's part of my past.
him: ( "yeah right, he's the reason why i have her now") you're over him?

her: of course.

him: so, can you now tell me what was on your mind why you were sleepless and crying for days?her: nothing.
him: look, i know you more than anyone else does.
her: how much do you know about me?
him: everything. the time you sleep, the food you eat, the coffee you drink, what pisses you off, what makes you cry, what makes you laugh.
her: if you really know me, you need not to ask me anymore. right?
him: you're still inlove with him.her: i just miss someone. someone i've known for years. someone i love for so long and held it inside. he doesn't know how much i love him. and i won't realize that if she didn't come in the picture.
him: why don't you use your heart this time?her: it's too late... you have her.
him: (he held her hand)
her: let go.

him: no, i'll hold you.

her: don't be selfish...you're holding her hand, yet, you don't wanna let go of mine...
him: (there was silence for a minute or two) do you still...do you still love me?
her: (cries more.. "so much... so much, that i want you to be happy... because she can give you more than i can..")i don't need you. what's wrong with you? we're best of friends. but, you can go and leave me. i can live without you.

him: yes we're best of friends. but we both know what's inside our hearts. i can leave her. please come back to me.her: you don't know what you're saying.

him: stop playing. you lost him, and i had her. what's next? i'll lose her and you'll have another man? this is a never-ending game. i still love you. i know you still do.

her: ("i love you. if you come back to me, i'll be the happiest woman in the world!") i don't love you anymore.
him: (hugs her and cries)
her: let me go. she loves you.
him: but i love you. you never had the right decision, make it right this time.
her: actually, i really didn't love you. i never loved you at all! i almost forgot that i had you as my boyfriend two years ago. i even cheated on you then. i just used you. (crap)
him: that's not true. i'll break up with her later. let's stop hurting each other.
her: do that and you will never see me again. please get angry with me!!!
him: i can't. even if you'll hurt me over and over again, i'll still choose to be with you.her: your car! it was me who put catsup and chewing gum all over it. even the powder, i turned your black car into white! if only you hadn't changed the place where you usually park, i would've stolen your side mirror. see?! life's like hell with me. now, get mad!!!
him: (smiled)i love you
her: ("i love you too...") stop it. please come back to her. we'll just be hurting each other.
him: (kissed her passionately)
her: ("i miss this!" slapped him and walked away)
him: please stay... 'c


when all she really wanted to do was to beg him to come back and stay...

questions: when does a wrong decision become a right one? when does a right one become the biggest mistake? when will she allow her heart to beat freely again? how can happiness be achieved without hurting anyone? yes, it is not a matter of a chance...it's a personal choice...

and she chose to LET it all GO...

i thank God

and yes! life can be so dramatic at times, but it can be perfectly BEAUTIFUL...
what really make your life like this are the people who surround you, whether they do good or harm, that's the SECOND... the first comes from you. the way how you see things greatly affects your life.


i learned that...

God holds the answers to my million questions, and throws them all just when i stopped asking.

Annabel Lee
edgar allan poe
1809-1849

it was many and many a year ago,
in a kingdom by the sea,
that a maiden there lived, whom you may know
by the name of annabel lee;
and this maiden she lived with no other thought
than to love, and be loved by me.

i was a child and she was a child,
in this kingdom by the sea;
but we loved with a love that was more than love,
i and my annabel lee, -
with a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
coveted her and me.

and this was the reason that long ago,
in this kingdom by the sea
a wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
my beautiful annabel lee;
so that her high-born kinsmen came,
and bore her away from me,
to shut her in a sepulchre,
in this kingdom by the sea.

the angels, not half so happy in heaven,
went envying her and me.
yes! that was the reson (as all men know)
in this kingdom by the sea,
that the wind came out of the cloud by the night,
chilling and killing my annabel lee.

but our love it was stronger by far than the love
of those who were older than we,
of many far wiser than we;
and neither the angels in heaven above,
nor the demons down under the sea,
can ever dissever my soul from the soul
of the beautiful annabel lee.

for the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
of the beautiful annabel lee,
and the stars never rise but i feel the bright eyes
of the beautiful annabel lee.
and so, all the night -tidea
i lie down by the side
of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
in her sepulchre there by the sea,
in her tomb by the sounding sea.

under my umbrella
i love the rain! shooper. ang sarap matulog sa taas, walang maingay na bata sa labas...
bat nag-rhyme?i really love the weather. pero syempre wag naman yung sobra. kawawa naman yung iba. ang SWEET ng ulan eh?

i miss my best friend!!! highschool palang kame, lagi kameng nagbabalak bumili ng umbrella and raincoat. yung may princesses na design ganyan. basta yung pambata. i actually bought one for myself last week. kaso next time nalang yung raincoat. dinala ko lang yung payong kong yon sa school this week, tinawanan ba naman ako. para daw akong bata. then the next day, 5 na kaming may ganon. haha. ang cute kasi eh. di sya mahirap gamitin kasi isang pindot lang unlike yung 3-fold umbrella ko. nabasa na ako at lahat di ko pa nabubuksan. anyway, si nasya na kasa-kasama ko since 1st year highshool, nasa US na ngayon. grrr. di ako sanay. now i have to wait for somebody to walk with me; get panicked when everyone's out of the room while im fixing my stuffs (eyeglasses, nb, pen, etc.); even drop coins in the Vendo machine; and buy my own ballpen. ala na rin akong hindi mapipikon sa kakulitan
and karahasanko [she never was]. ala nakong napagsasabihan ng mga sobrang weird na bagay, and walang kwentang stories. wala ng makikinig sa mga dreams ko na maging superheroine. with her kasi we can talk about anything. we're so compassionate with each other, i am me when i'm with her. haaaii. ang hirap noh? i need not a man but best friends to keep me HAPPY. on the other hand, lhey never left me behind. i love her! nasya and i love her! get well lhey.

SUPER...

just got home from our recollection. it was fun. not the sermon, but the gathering itself.

it was another chance for me to reflect again. and i prayed to God all my wishes and desperations. and i never thought God would respond that fast! i love you Lord.

mixed.

Good evening! =)(

Today is Friday and I still don’t know what I should be doing. There are things that I am supposed to do yet I’m idle for hours. I’ve been thinking kasi how to balance my time. No good kaya I’m still working on it. Many things are taken unserious and few things are highly well thought-out naman. Yun ang napansin kong problem ko. I tend to overlook things. Minsan yung focus ko masyadong malayo. Ever since kasi iba prinsipyo ko sa prinsipyo ng majority. May sariling mundo ba. =8

I got the results from my minor subjects and…nakakapanlambot. Happy naman sa majors pero hindi parin totally happy kasi nga naiisip ko yung minors.Hmmmn. Kahapon, my classmates and I reflected with the choice of career we are taking. Nakapagisip-isip kame, parang gusto naming mag-shift ng course. Naiisip kasi namen sophomore palang pero super fatigued na kame. What more pag nag-duduty na. Na-sa-psycho na rin ako! Tapos after grad swertihan lang. diba. Eh wala naman akong maisip na ibang course, Business Ad sigurado ako. Or MassComm. Bigla ko na naman kasing naalala yung quote na nabasa ko from a writer on a glossy magazine who was once an unhappy doctor of medicine student… “I really want to be a writer who heals, rather than being a healer who writes.”

Pero nung nagisip-isip ako ulit, I came to realize na it’s not all about the benefits and goods I would get from this profession. It’s more about saving LIFE. In a way, you’re following what God has obliged us to do/be: STEWARDS of His creation. Clap clap mga angels pag time mo na diba. It’s the passion to heal. Ibang klase rin yung rewards sa career na toh. It’s prizing with pride and happiness!

Anyway, may bagong bansag seatmate ko saken ngayon. PRICIPAL! Ang sungit ko daw sa boys. Aaawwwttsss. Nakakairita kasi minsan kakulitan nila. Pero mabait naman ako ah. Ayoko lang ng may nangungulet pag lecture discussion na. Sabi ko nga sakanya belong kasi ako sa mga “in-betweeners” (I am a company man… you can take this job and shove it.). Na-guilty ako ng slight don ah. Haha. Sakto kasi mangungulit sya pag super focused nako noh. Pero masungit daw talaga ako sabi nung isa na hindi ko naman seatmate. Hehe. Whatever.

Going back, siguro the least I can do [yet, the greatest] na dapat hindi ko binabaliwala is to PRAY. And everything else will follow. Sabi ko nga, in every way, there’s always a way. Ora et labora. =)

Light Of My Life

Sa dinami-dami ng paghihirap ko, walang katapusang sakripisyo, natutuwa pa rin ako. =) it reminds me that God still cares for me. He wants me to grow. So, lahat ng bad things na nangyayari sakin, all have their own significance in my life. Eventually, these will mold me to a better person He wanted me to become. =) kakatouch diba.

I fear God. He’s my best friend and true Father. He has the power to scare me. But that fear brings me closer to Him. I often ignore the bible before, but now, it has been my great companion. And the church became my Home. Ang gaan-gaan ng feeling pag nakakasama ko companion ko and pag umuuwi ako.

Last Sunday, while waiting for my friends, I went to the church to hear mass. Sanay akong mag-isa. Then I saw tok, palipat-lipat sya ng place. Tok, siya yung tambay sa side gate ng university main bldg. mentally illed sya. Pero nung nakita ko sya sa church, iba yung tok na nakita ko. Imagine, kahit may psychological disorder sya, nakakapgsimba siya. Eh ano nalang tawag sa mga hindi nagsisimba? Tinamaan ako don. God calls me all the time. Often times, I ignore and pretend I don’t hear Him. kaka-guilty noh. That was me then.

God is not the source of light... He is our light…

and it’s just a matter of seeing the light…

ADDICTIONS:

(with a total percentage of 100)

1) internet [30%] that includes ym, friendster, blog....

2) foods [25%] kahit sabihin kong nilalagnat ako at wala akong gana, hindi obvious. or style ko (hindi lang naman ako), pag magkakasama na kaming magbabarkada and may pinagsasaluhan ng isang dessert, i'll eat it grossly para hindi na sila huminge. sa McDo naman, since minsan ako taga-order, magtatago nako ng catsup para sa fries and burger ko. natatawa nalang ako pag nakikita ko silang super tipid sa catsup nila, samantalang ako, well... hehe

3) tv [20%] when i was a child, my mom and dad would have to carry me to my bedroom pa. or minsan, dinadalhan nalang ako ng unan sa sala. mga 5-10 yrs old pa ko non pero adik/babad nako sa tv.

4) texting [15%] hindi naman ako kitikitext pero lately umaabot nako ng madaling araw. lalo na pag yung conversation super deep and full of spirit. di maawat.

5) picture taking [10%] camwhore ata ako. hehe. minsan kahit hindi naman kasali sa pic taking, nakikisingit pa ko. hehe.

10 weird things:
1) im allergic to everything. hindi ako umiinom, hindi dahil ayoko. allergic ako. hindi rin ako nagkakamay, hindi dahil maarte ako. allergic ako. hindi ako naglalaba, hindi dahil tamad ako, allergic ako. kumakain ako ng seafoods, hindi dahil hindi ako allergic sa malansa, allergic din ako. di rin ako gumagamit ng mabangong soap, lotions, etc.

2) i wake up at 9:30 am then get up by 12noon.

3) i still cry when i see the movies i watched for the 8th time. again. talking about alzheimer's... when i hear a news or chismis, i still get shocked/amazed even though i heard it before
4) face recognition. i can hardly remember faces!!! gosh. if i just met you today, don't feel at ease yet coz tomorrow you're a stranger to me. i don't know but i really can't recall faces unless the person did something significant to me. (di ako pwede mag-witness sa isang crime, hehe)

5) superindependent daw. i often go to the mall all by myself. ako daw yung pwedeng mabuhay kahit itapon ako sa isang isla. haha. and nakailang bahay na rin akong nilipatan, 4 na. 4. npa

6) takot ako sa manok! basta anything that resembles a bird. pag umaalis ako ng bahay, lagi akong late sa pinupuntahan ko because i have to take the long way pa, dahil maraming manok na nakakalat sa shortcut. a poor excuse when i get late in class. (di ko naman masabi sa prof un!)

7) i can be a high maintainenance and sophisticated girl now, then be clumsy and dirty later. when partying, i dress up glamorously but not as stunning as my friends. one time, yung pinuntahan naming debut, i brought some of my dress and let my 2 other girlfriends wear them. ayun! pagdating sa party,feeling usherettes kame... parang kasama kame sa cotillion. pero sa bahay, butas2x lang sinusuot ko. pag may bisita, magpapalit ako, then my mon would say "magpalit ka nga, parang basahan damit mo!". eh guys, kapapalit ko palang ah.

8) i can wear my 10 year old sister's footwear.

9) i can be head over heels, madly inlove today. then find myself single the next day. bilis magbago ng mood ko neh?

10) i sing and dance a lot! what's the weird thing there? i'm at my worst when you catch me doing such. haha. lahat ata ng mga dance grooves alam ko. pero bat pag sinasayaw ko... iba?

time killers


PART I


1.Does anyone know your password?
*yes

2. What was the last thing you ordered
at McDonalds?
*nuggets and float

3. Are you an emotional person?
*could be

4. Do you like your name?
*yes

5. Do you believe in love at first
sight?
*no

6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
*yes

7. What was the last thing you did?
*licked the cake's icing

8. who's next to you?
*no one

9. Who was the last person you ate
with?
*mama, ella, edna

10. What song are you listening to
right now?
*how deep is your love

11. How's the weather right now?
*cloudy

12. Last person you called today?
*mama

14. Last song you sang?
*with you

15. Last time you danced
*3 hours ago (ah doo doo doo...)

16. Lost a friendship over something
stupid?
*yes

18. Last thing you ate?
*cake (from last night's party)

19. Been really depressed before?
*yes

20. Faked being sick to miss school?
*no

21. What time did you wake up today?
*11:30

22. Current taste?
*bitter

23. Who is the person that posted this
survey?
*from friendster bulletin

24. What are you wearing right now?
*shorts and shirt

25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
*close friend? no. long lost friend? yes

26. What is the first thing you notice
about the opposite sex?
*clothes he's wearing

27.Where are you right now?
*computer room near the kitchen (?)

28. What date and day is it?
*june 2, sat

29. Did you go anywhere today? where?
*nowhere. ah. bedroom

30. What did you do there?
*cleaned

31. How old are you?
*17

33. Are you mature or immature?
*still childish

34. Do you call your parents by their
first name?
*no

35. Are you an only child?
*no

36. Where do you go shopping?
*baclaran, divisoria, greenhills, department store

37. Do you like where you work?
*still studying

38. Do you like books?
*yes

39. Do you want to get married?
*yes. someday.

40. To whom?
*ooooohhhh...

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PART II


three names you go by:
1. sey
2. shey
3. rachell

three screen names you have had:
1. angela
2. bebang
3. janice

three physical things you like about yourself:
(shocks, meron ba?)
1. dimples (na nakabaon na - wrinkles - ppssh!)
2. black hair (na nagffly away)
3. wala na

three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. skin tone
2. nose
3. legs

three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. chinese
3. wala na

three things that scare you:
1. manok, manok, buhay na manok!
2. something that irritates my EYES
3. bad dream

three of your everyday essentials:
1. money
2. cellphone
3. food

three of your favorite musical artists:
1. eraserheads (legend eh)
2. coldplay
3. switchfoot/david matthews/greenday/eric benet (oh oh, sumobra)

three of your favorite songs:
1. friends soundtrack
2. romeo and juliet soundtrack
3. you got it all

three things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. a leap of faith
3. friendship

three lies and truths in no particular order:
lies:
1. politics
2. love at first sight (?)
3. promises of mortals

truth:
1. God
2. destiny (wlang kokontra! hehe. even before we existed, God has planned everything for us)
3. cheap thrills of attraction

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. skin tone
3. style (dapat may dating)

three of your favorite hobbies:
1. surfing the net
2. reading a good novel
3. playing cards

three things you want to do really badly now:
1. sleep
2. go to the gym
3. time alone in an isolated but safe place

three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. writer and healer
2. dentist
3. interior designer

three places you want to go on vacation:
1. europe (esp. rome)
2. palawan
3. tagaytay highlands

three kid's names you like:
1. ashley
2. chloe
3. dominique

three things you want to do before you die:
1. go to the beach
2. travel the world
3. pay all my debts (sa parents ko)

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. siga
2. siba
3. boyfriends

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. vain
2. love shopping!!!
3. sentimental

three celeb crushes:
1. lee ji hoon
2. jami (ehem!)
3. john lloyd cruz

three people that i would like to see take this quiz:
(sa source nalang. ehe)
1. geli
2. gyk
3. lhey

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PART III


1. Who would you want to be tied to
for 24 hours?
*uuuhhhmmmn. my ex

2. Who do you blame for your mood
today?
*bee gees

3. Have you ever seen a dead body?
*yes

4. What should we do w/ stupid people??
*abolish

5. How long do you think you will live?
*80s

6. What was the first thing you did
this morning?
*fixed my bed

7. The color of carpet in your bedroom?
*ala man!

9. Last person you went out to dinner
with?
*ella

10. Are you spoiled?
*no

11.Do you drink lots of water?
*yes

12. What toothpaste do you use?
*colgate

13. How do you vent your anger?
*throw pillows

14. The last compliment you received?
*ah ah ah. la man!

15. What are you doing this weekend?
*visit my lola

16 When was the last time you threw up?
*2004 (?)

17. Is your best friend a virgin?
*yes

18. What theme does your room have?
*playground

19. When was the last time you were at
a party?
*a week ago

20. Are you a mama's child or a
daddy's child?
*daddy's

21. Would you ever join the military?
*no!

22. The last website you visited?
*link

23. Who was the last person you took a
picture with?
*link

25. Last person you went to the movies
with?
*my ex

26. What did you do/will you do for
your birthday this year?
*no plans yet

27. Number of layers on your bed?
*1

28. Is anything alive in your room?
*oh yah

29. Today, would you rather go back a
week or go forward a week?
*either

30. What are you looking forward to
right now?
*barkada nights

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PART IV


ayoko na. pagod nako.

time alone


lonely. bitter. mad. shocked.confused. helpless.



i felt all those emotions in less than 24 hours. so what happened the day after? BLESSED. yah. imagine, God cared to waste a minute to save me. i may not completely understand His plans now, but i know someday i'll be thankful. it seems so hard for me to smile every morning when i wake up, and i really miss that instant happiness i had before. still, i can't blame Him. i can't complain with what i have right now. and i feel sorry because i'm still too blinded to see the rainbow. all i ever wanted is RAIN. coz when it rains, i can feel that somehow heaven's with me, crying with me. and that makes me feel i'm not alone. babaw ba? ewan. i love the rain. minsan naisip ko maglakad-lakad sa ulan. kaso baka damputin ako at dalhin sa MH. well kidding aside, i want to be far far far away from here. can anyone take me? hehe. no. gusto kong mapag-isa. magreflect and mag-enjoy being alone.


narealize ko na minsan nakaka-relieve magkwento sa strangers. i mean, they don't know you. wala silang alam so all they need to do is listen. o, diba? hay.

siguro what i really need now is enough strength. and thank you sa lahat ng nag-bigay nyan. thank you!


may bagong song akong nagustuhan: OVER YOU by chris daughtry. funny pero nung una yung gusto ko yung IT'S NOT OVER (same artist). i didn't know that i'll be singing this song pala...

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

nice noh? wala lang. sana someday, super makakanta ko na yan. uhm, right now, sabi ko nga nagpapaka-busy ako. parties. gimmicks. lahat ina-attend ko. and after "the night", when you're just alone in your room, you'll realize that nothing has changed.sad pero atleast kahit saglit lang nakalimot ka diba?. such a weak weak weak defense pero who knows, it might help.

nakapaglabas narin ako ng sama ng loob sa mga good friends. and it really helped. same reason why i opted not to create a new post muna. i don't wanna mess my online diary with a super stupid thing. ayoko rin makasakit sa mga taong makakabasa. ganun lang talaga ako. when i was a child, i used to *spill every details to anyone i'm really not close with (and unconciously, i'm spoiling everything na pala, including the good memories), which is so unhealthy for a grown up girl. diba? kaya pati sa shoutout ko sa friendster nagpipigil ako, kahit na there's the word SHOUT. kakatempt nga lang minsan na magbuhos ng sama ng loob. that's one thing i've learned from the book "the break up diaries". when everything is done it's ok to say you hate him and that you're angry. but never show the murderer side of you - killing his private life slowly. i mean, others kasi tend to reveal their ex's bad side. wag ganon. wag. so when the time comes, you two are friends or hook up again, you won't be caught, "wasn't he the guy you're talking about who has a body odor?" or "may std yan diba?". choose the right friends whom you could share everything including your plans on how to poison him. could be his best best best friend. they will never look down to him. kakampihan pa best friend nila. and that's ok. atleast they won't hate him. unlike when you share it to your barkada, naku. mas umuusok pa sila sa galit kaysa sayo. hehe. so when someone asks you why, and keeps on nagging you to tell him/her the whole story, just say you don't want to talk about it or just smile, "better ask him". kaya maganda na rin siguro na hindi ko rin alam ang kwento bakit natapos, wala silang info na makukuha saken. ehe. i told my friends that i really do not know. that's the truth. i don't know.

siguro things just didn't work out right. ok kame, oo. pero mafefeel mo naman na hindi mo na deserve yung nakukuha mo sa relationship niyo diba. and i'm glad he was that strong to leave me. which i really can't do. nakakalungkot lang kasi bakit sya diba? parang dapat ako. dapat akin yung mga lines na sinasabi niya saken. i felt somehow unappreciated. i sacrificed for so long, and ako pa nawalan. whoops! a month ago, after a small tampuhan (nasigawan ata niya 'ko), he told me that i don't deserve him, that i am too good for him. and he hates it when i cry coz, though i can't see, he feels hell. and he also mentioned that i have all the right to leave him. but he said that he doesn't want to lose me, and he asked me to hold on. probably, that's the reason why he left. pretty good excuse, but it still hurts. it's really hard for me to cope up with this kind of quandary. i never imagined that we're going to hurt each other this bad. i always thought that when we broke up, it would be over a small funny damn thing lang. we're both crazy kasi. hay nako, stop reminiscing. ehehe. but im sure he has his own reason. whatever it is, i hope he'll be happy. and ayoko na magpaka-martyr noh, i hope i'll be happier. y? you konw, it has always been easy for a guy to move on. manliligaw lang sila. iinom. wish i can do the same process. honestly i pray that hopefully, we can be friends someday, we're in the same barkada anyway. after all, he's been a good friend to me. why not diba?


we can even call it a happy ending when we both get through with this, can't we? i guess for now, just like any other break up limbo, it's sad and awful. so i asked the Lord to give me the courage i need to face everyday without him. i'm strong, i just forgot that i am. hay. anu ba toh? i've been here before. it's a process my dear. forgiveness is a process i need to take.
i'll get over this. someday. soon. later.


what's new? my friendster acct na'ko! yahoo!.


kaso nagloloko (help?). refresh nalang.


such a long post huh. well.

the omega

after 7 months of exchanging sweet messages, drei wrote to say goodbye.

she was so devastated.

there's nothing more compelling reason
to break up with anyone than...
falling out of love

-between dinner and the morning after

buhay bahay


can anything be more boring than this? but matter-of-factly, i'm loving it! di man ako naglalalabas, ako naman ang prinsesa ng bahay! haha. ok naman eh. i can never complain with what i have. im not a fan (differs from *fond) kc of nitpicking on things eh. kung ganon, be it. diva?

so here i am, enjoying my day:



Any tips on how to cool down this hot, hot summer? (tag-ulan na nga eh)... green mango shake! yeh yeh... green yan. nag-yellow lang coz i added bits of pineapple. naka-mood mango tree namen ngayon eh. gusto mo? not for sale. basta ikaw aakyat ng puno. come. cool.



for you!



er, play with it. cge lang. nawasa yan.



madilim na dear, pasok na...(my attempt to step out the house)




till the sun goes down. (frontview sa labas ng bahay)

50 gifts from them ♥


i was asked to clean my closet. and ooohhh so blessed. dami ko na palang gifts from friends and family - na in fairness kini-keep / ginagamit ko pa until now.
just so i would'nt forget their generosity, here:

*bf - by force

1. wooden frame -kuya mike
i love it! i put there my 1st 3-stage growth year pictures.. [ha?]
2. bday card - pol
di ko magets toh eh, parang xmas card pero bday msg nsa loob.
3. coin purse - keisha *bf

me: wow! ang cute naman nyan. san mo nabili?
kei: sa divisoria pa.
me: ooh. sayang. sana nagpabili ako
kei: sige sa'yo nalang.
me: =)

4. umbrella - dad *bf

me: lam mo pa, ang init na sa labas ngayon. lalo na sa school. palipat-lipat ng building.
dad: ahh talaga

5. pink headband - lhey liwanag *bf

me: please? ='(
lhey: next time nalang, pag may pera ako. (1,2,3,4,5)magkano po?
me: =)

6. book: 20 tough questions teenagers ask - lei bumanlag
7. book: sabrina the teenage witch - kuya mike
fave ko toh nung bata ako.
8. mini wall clock - joi enriquez
9. personalized card - loren raquel
touched =)
10 & 11. rosary & bracelet - nasya torres
peace offering niya. haha.
12 & 13. bracelets - loren raquel
14. earrings - ella
15. cam - dad
16. burberry tender touch perfume - sab cos
actually baby touch fave ko. pero since galing kay sab, i loved tender touch
17. davidoff cool water - thea siy
i don't like the idea of giving perfumes kasi what do they know ba kung ano scent gusto mo. pero ewan, d best mamili friends ko. i love it!
18. bear figurine - nasya torres
19. lipstick - ate lisa
20. dove figurine - pol's mom
21. LG f7100 - dad
di ko naman alam gamitin. anyone [who has the same unit]? =(
22. Nokia 3220 - dad

la nako balak magupgrade. i like its keypad. hehe

23. ring - pol

24. heart-shaped stuff - ella

25. personalized stuff with pcs and bits of paper inside- rich roxas

26. f&h mini skirt - patty melo

love it...

27. purple top - ella *bf

28. reebok sleeveless - ate lisa

29. cbh sleeveless - u. joseph

30. penshoppe top - thea siy

31. cbh spag stap - u. joseph

32. white top - ate lisa

33. bny off-shoulder - jacq tan

34. red shirt - ate lisa

35 & 36. ucob shirts - ate josel

37. penshoppe top - sobs nucum *bf

38. maldita halter - u. joseph

39. G sexy spag strap - lei bumanlag

40. yellow halter - kate bondoc

41. lhasa polo blouse - pol

42. pink blouse - tayne indiongco & sobs nucum

43. rl jogging pants - ate lisa

BAGS

44. nine west tote - ah forgot. hihihi

45. nw travelling bag - likewise

46. df - ate lisa

47. girbaud - lan gonzales

48. red - patty melo *bf

hiram lang daw. haha

49. blue - sab cos *bf

50. overused sandals (no photo) - pol

thank you, thank you, thank you!

oohh girls just wanna have fun :D

it was the evening before when the three of us (tayne, loren, and me) decided to give ourselves a day! oh c'mon! and that's it! parang wala lang, nagpakapagod lang. but it was FUN ;) here's a glimpse...

what's your favorite radio station?... isipin mo nalang love radio! (100x)

go go ice skating! i lovvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeee watching!!! hehe.

yum yum yum!

well...just seeing the tag prices, "ah, tara greenhills". hai!

eto 'yon. at nakuha sa 35% discount. medyo mabigat pa sa bulsa yon, pero kinuha ko na. yah right walang connection. i don't know how to play guitar, pero parang may spark nung nakita ko (halur siyempre may bato!?).

yun lang. nagkalat ang mga probinsyana sa siyudad. hmmmn. thanks to cams and pao. so back to boredom na naman nyan.

*warning: this could be just a crap :0

come near...

ok this post is no emo at all. i've changed! no more dramas (ows?). i just want to put everything that bug me in my head. just don't mind the title. wala ako maisip. but ts somewhat related naman. i've been thinking and dreaming way too far. 5 proofs:

the 63 building!!! yah. the tallest bldg in northeast asia. remember my girl? kung saan sila laging nag-ddate ni julian? uhm. yon! basta gusto ko dyan. wanna see also the IMAX Theater. 3x daw ang lake nito! whooh!

who wouldn't love this house??? kung sa pinas ay PBB House ang naging tourist spot, sa Korea ay

Full House. it was made especially for the miniseries (full house), cost approximately one million US dollars. so parang 'di ko kaya yon!!! haha. but i super love the house.

10 mp digi cam.

hai... anong laban ng blog ko na may 10+ votes sa mga may 100+ na? kung may chance man, siguro yung straw lang ng dutch mill prize ko. pag-iipunan ko na nga lang digicam(ngek?). asa asa! este 'aja aja fighting'!

ang dagat... kung papipiliin ako ng place where would i want to die...beach! ehe. it was my lola who taught me how to love the beach. bata pa ko non lagi niya ko sinasama pag nagrerecollection mga CFC. laging sa beach. then, my father too. namana ko kc yung skin allergy nya. kaya yon, pag umuuwi sya, pumunta kame ng beach (it heals). hai!!! pero that was 4 years ago!!!

kailan kaya magiging ganito kasaya ang heart ko? hep hep hep! wala ng ka-ek-ek-an diba? hehe. wala lang, natanong ko lang. hmmmnn...

*forgive me. i'm suffering from hallucination.

only in the philippines

it's a wow a country...a wow country!

o oh, whoahoh whoh oh! ayan lang naman ang mga gusto kong puntahan this summer. nice noh? and di naman masyado mataas pangarap ko, kaya within the boundary of the philippines nalang.

may napanood ako nung minsan- a child who drew his dream house and posted it on the wall. they were so poor then (poor pa saken). [he said] just by looking at the picture, it inspires him more to achieve it... so he drew all his dreams. and now, he is a big boss who is living in his dream palace... happy noh?

so gumagaya ako ngayon. baka sakaling sa kakatingin ko sa blog ko, eh maisakatuparan ko rin. hmmmn. i really really wanna travel. gusto kong puntahan ang mga yan. mga 2week trip, pwede na! woohoo! kaso nga lang, pangarap lang yan. mahirap ang maging mahirap! but i must be positive. i am here to witness her beauty. wish ko lang, matupad toh bago man lang ako machugi. ung iba eh, gusto ko lang ulit-ulitin. hmmmnn.

to pichay: pangarap mo rin bang tuparin ang mga pangarap ko? sana...

summit book reviews...

vince's life
two thumbs up for this super romantic novel. a true [love] story of vince in his college years with his friends, and yes with andrea. not like the typical one, they both part ways after graduation. but there is a part two! and i've been searching for that. do you know where to get one? everyone can relate to his story.
c/o kim aquino

who stole my magic?
"show me a woman who has never had her heart broken

and i'll show you a woman who has never really lived."

breakup? it's not impossible to overcome. this book is made up of words that would surely help you get through. it made me realize that there are endless possibilities out there, if only you'll give yourself a chance to see what the world has for you.
c/o kath lumanlan

have baby, will date
party goer and happy-go-lucky had a change of destiny. she is a single parent who doesn't want any help from the father of her pretty child. but she can't deny it to herself that this man is really a hunk. as always, they end up together living with their happy family.
c/o jacq tan

the breakup diaries
been turned down? survive a heartache. learn to let go. someone's waiting for you. sabi nga, "someone is in deeper pain of not having you".

c/o sarah sambat

between dinner and the morning after
"find a man who is more inlove with you than you are with him. this way he will never leave you." i'm still not finish with this. pero i recommend this one for all those who are torned between two lovers. it's like mr. right is here but then again, destiny plays with you and brings former lover infront of you. sure, you can't have both, so make the shrewdest decision ever. i always say this one, "on my part, old flames can never be rekindled". hmmnn, panindigan! aha.
c/o lean liwanag

drama queen

for theater actors and naughty ones. hehe. learn the moves.

smooches on the backstage, cr, anywhere! so sexy! haha.
c/o tayne indionco

those are all the books that i read and enjoyed from summitbooks. and take note, lahat nyan hiniram ko lang. but i'm desperate to have my own copies too. these books are best for your daily dullness this summer...

way to go. i'm still in search for all these contemporary books from summit media:

• No Boyfriend Since Birth
• Wander Girl
• Tough Love
• Mr. Write
• Almost Married
• Vince's Life 2

*movie review naman minsan.