a beautiful dream

This morning, I woke up smiling. I could not remember what was my dream. All I know it was a beautiful, a very beautiful one. I tried to recall what or who was in my dream, but I just couldn't. As the day passed, I suddenly had a flashback of my dream. It was him. I saw him smiling right in front of me. I was laughing as he was doing funny faces. He was looking straight in my eyes. Or I think I was holding a camera. It was as if nothing has happened between us. It was as if he loves me. I guess the thing that made it beautiful was that he was smiling at me - the smile I've been longing for quite some time.

I felt glad and sad at the same time. It was the first time that I had him in my dreams. Yet, I felt some sort of self-pity. Was I this desperate? God knows my heart. And I don't wanna go into details about this anymore.

Nevertheless, it's still good to remember that whatever trials I am facing right now, I AM NOT ALONE. God's been my encourager.

I've been part of Wildfire, the youth ministry of His Life City Church for almost one year. And we've had like 2 concerts since then: WORSHIP BLAST last Dec 2010 and ROCK @ THE TENT held last March 2011. And I regret I failed to attend both events. It's not that I intend not to come. I was too sick during the Worship Blast concert. And I babysit my nephew who was confined in the hospital during the Rock @ The Tent. So to this date, this is the first concert in Wildfire that I am going to attend - OUR GOD IS LOVE. And I'm so uber excited! This time, the Enemy can't stop me. It's even amazing how God cleared my flights. I had my last flight for the week yesterday. Today is my rest day. Tomorrow is gonna be the big day. The day after tomorrow is also my rest day. My next flight will be on Monday =) so favored.

But apparently, I'm no longer part of this youth ministry in my first ever attendance with all the Wildfire's concerts. I now belong to the young professionals, Catalyst, ministry of the church effective last October 8. Pero young at heart naman kaya okay lang :)

Meanwhile, tomorrow's also the seminar on teachers' empowerment. It's a meeting among the teachers of kidzlife, the kids ministry of His Life, and God. And Lord knows I can't do it alone. I need His presence. His Wisdom. So goodnight worshipers! See you all tomorrow! =)

Before that, here's the glimpse of what's going to happen tomorrow. Just a glimpse, because it's going to be superb than this.

Carolina Liar - Show Me What I'm Looking For (Video)

SHOW ME WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR

Wait, I’m wrong
Should have done better than this
Please, I’ll be strong
I’m finding it hard to resist
So show me what I’m looking for

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused

Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Oh lord

Don’t let go
I’ve wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I’ve learned to love abuse
Please show me what I’m looking for

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused

Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Oh lord
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused

Wait, I’m wrong
I can’t do better than this
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Oh lord

A thousand feet closer. =)

I found a one great reason why I should look forward to flying, enough to keep on keeping on. Flying could be a stressful thing to some cabin crews. Pressure on safety and security versus OTP (On Time Performance), pressure from passengers, and yes, pressure in the ears.

But hey! Here's the thing: I’m a thousand feet closer to God!!! Each time I take my seat in the cabin, I look into the sky and utter my prayer requests, all kinds of petitions. Such a selfish reason that my prayer reaches Him first (30,000 times faster than anybody else), but that’s what motivates me =)

She says 'Hi'. He'll just sigh.

She's not good at pretending.
When she says 'Hi',
he'll give her a sigh.
His silence kills her.
His look crashes her.
No matter how much she tries to hide the pain,
her eyes can't lie.
She still gets hurt.
Deeply hurt.

One thing she prays,
that he would let her love him. . .
even just for a day.
It doesn't matter if he won't feel the same way.
It doesn't really matter.
Just let her love him. . .
even just for a day.

I thought loving someone who can’t love you back is the worst thing one could ever feel. Well, nothing can get any worse than loving someone who hated you for that very reason – loving him.