acceptance

how would i begin this? well actually i thought of this word simply because i am fascinated by it - it moves every corner of my heart. and it really means so much to me, to you, and to everyone. it's this ten letter word that one needs to learn by heart and practice. very basic it may seem. but it is in this one word that we find ourselves jammed. it may take us long before having it, and sometimes we may never do.

it's birth goes along with multiple godly genetics: humility, forgiveness, and love... here are some points about it.

before one can have what he wants in life, he must first accept that he is but an ordinary human being. kailangan lang nating tanggapin na mangangailangan at mangangailangan tayo ng tulong. remember God did not create man alone. He knows what's beyond our capacity. hindi tayo higit ninu man. we do not have super powers to control everything. it's a way to failure i think - to believe that you can do everything. i must admit that i am somehow workaholic. but i never push myself that much. i always shout for help. although yes, it may sound contradicting to what other inspirational books say - to believe in yourself that you have the power to do everything. because for me, that conviction puts your id so up. in reality, it is not always the case. what if you really can't? if with perseverance, why not?! but pushing yourself too hard is never healthy. siguro yun nalang yung para saken: ok! do it. try hard. but never ever push yourself to the limits. rejection and failure will always be there. they happen for so many reasons... reasons that most often than not, are unfair and not justifiable. sometimes even if you did all your best, you still face negative outcomes that may be hard to accept. but you know what, i realized at least one reason why unpleasant things like these happen... you overestimated your capabilities!!! umapaw ang self-confidence. it's okay to believe and trust in yourself, hindi rin makakabuti kasi if you have very low self-esteem, but always put in mind that we are not super heroes. eh kung mga super heroes nga may side kick, tayo pa kaya? kailangan lang nating tanggapin na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon kaya natin. we have to accept HELP - help from others & help from Him. humility.

madalas talaga kailangan nating tanggapin na may 'mas' sa atin. we will and we shall meet people who are smarter than us, more beautiful than us, richer than us, always better than us. i've seen these people. noon akala ko matalino nako. when i was in pre-school, i was praised by my teacher that i have the best apple illustration among my classmates. and i thought i was always the best. comes our graduation ceremony, nagtataka ako bakit wala akong medal marami naman akong stars na nakukuha from my teacher. and siyempre being a 4-year old kid, hindi ko pa agad narealize na hindi ako ganun katalino gaya ng inisip ko. when i entered my new school for first year in highschool, still thinking i am smart enough, nanibago ako. maraming estudyante. but i didn't think of it as a challenge yet, akala ko makakasabay ako. then when i received my class cards for the first grading period, i was shocked and almost couldn't believe that i was seeing line of 7s... emphasis on its plural form! at dun ko nalaman at natanggap na hindi talaga ako smart. and from then on, i took it as a challenge. i strived hard in school not because i wanted to be the best. nagsumikap ako dahil natanggap ko na ang totoo. at dun nag-ugat ang aking hard work! but if i did not accept it, siguro matagal nakong bumagsak sa klase. humility.

have you ever done something in the past that made a significant pause in your world? i had. matagal bago ko napatawad ang sarili ko, ang mga tao sa nakaraan ko... it took me almost four years before i had my life back to normalcy. at dun ko narealize na 'sayang!' ang saya pala ng pakiramdam. super it changed my life. i wouldn't be this happier if i never knew how to let go. kinailangan ko lang tanggapin na there would always be someone who is better than me. matagal-tagal bago ako nag matured. i had this mentality na gusto ko akin pa rin yung mga bagay na dating akin. magulo ba? :P to make it simplier, i was selfish. pero ngayon, naiintindihan ko na. hindi ka pwedeng maging maramot pag nag-mahal. only then you would be able to free yourself. and i feel free! forgiveness. love.

acceptance.

shey shouts 'PUNTA FUEGO!'

it's oozing hot this summer! and i'm getting bored already. i have this obsession that bothers me a lot, saying i need to bring myself here: i really, really want to go to Punta Fuego in Batangas! can somebody bring me here? =P oh, maybe not now. maybe when i get filthy rich (unfortunately, this clubhouse is exclusive to members and property owners only). for now, i'll focus nalang muna in transcribing this interviews we had for our thesis which takes me [as a beginner] six hours in finishing such per 30-minute interview (argh!) - o, siyempre that includes na TV breaks.