Let me not see your pain again. Never again.
Because I won't think twice in rescuing you.
Tralalalalala

Sweet Song

Greatest Story Ever Told
By Oliver James





Tonight, I fell in love with Oliver James. What a sweet serenade ♥

Pag ba new haircut, brokenhearted agad? Di ba pwedeng nagsweldo lang muna? :D

I just kissed my long blonde hair goodbye not so long this afternoon :) I've been wanting this short haircut. As a 2p cabin crew, we are required to have our long hair in ponytail and BRAIDED. Imagine, you wake up early, dry your hair, then perfect that historical braid. And you better hurry 'cause you don't wanna end up running with your trolley through the airport. It's cute, yes. But doing it almost everyday? Nah. That hassle of fixing your hair especially during early morning flights, oh, I'm so done with that. And that gives me additional thirty minutes to polish my makeup :)

Facing Giants

Right before her eyes were them – together. It was like she was caught in a situation where escape is not an option. It was her first time to see them together and she saw how he looked at the girl intently. This was her greatest fear. She knows she couldn’t control her emotions. It happened a lot of times whenever she sees him walking passed her, making her feel a complete stranger. So of course, she didn’t want to be in yet another worse scenario where she couldn’t keep the tears from falling, where everybody sees and pities her. And so seeing them together would mean a deeper cut. But praise God He answered her plea – not to let that happen unless she is prepared. And it was far from what she imagined would be like...

As she gracefully walked passed by them, she was wearing her sweetest smile and everybody’s waving her hi and hellos. She wanted to stay at the moment and appreciate the people who were greeting her, but she didn’t want to make an awkward scene. She moved on and slowly walked while absorbing what she just saw. It was them! In a beautiful Sunday afternoon, she unexpectedly saw the guy she dearly loves, and the girl whom his heart belongs. What could be more upsetting than that? But no, she was wrong. Because she still found her self smiling after that. The pain and tears she was expecting didn't happen, and it never did since.

God allowed that to happen when He knows she can handle it. Honestly, she felt her heart beating ten times faster than normal. But nonetheless, she was able to face her giants. Well, God made her able. It was the perfect time to face her fear. She didn’t know she was prepared for that until it happened. It was easier than what she thought it was gonna be. She chose to be happy and ignore the giants. Praise God! =)

I guess trusting God will always make things easier :)

At that time your mouth will be opened; you will speak with him and will no longer be silent. So you will be a sign to them, and they will know that I am the LORD.”

Ezekiel 27:24

My Strength & Weakness

What's so good about having a not-so-good memory is that I easily forget painful experiences in life, and consequently forgive the offender. I remember the person but not the offense. I remember that we had a misunderstanding, but not the details. I remember that we fought over something, but not the reason. I remember that someone had hurt me before, but not as bad as it really was. I remember the name, but not the rumors about him or her. See? I live a life of no regrets, no hatred, no bitterness, no hard feelings toward another. Like when I accidentally met someone from the past, he was like shaking in fear that I may slap his face, but he was puzzled when I gave him a 'high five' instead. And he gave me a look that says, "I'm sorry". Without that expression, I wouldn't remember what he did to me or how bad he hurt me then.

Another story was when I was sitting right beside my 'ex', and people began teasing us. If they hadn't done that, I wouldn't remember that he was my 'ex'. LOL. Seriously. I know, of course, that he has been a good friend, but I almost forgot that we had a bad breakup. That was funny actually. Well, I consider this as my strength.

But that isn't always an advantage. I've had plenty of good memories in my childhood and school life, but it's awful how I can't retain those events in my mind. And I feel sorry each time an old friend would come to me and would gladly tell me funny stories we've shared when we were young, and I was just staring blankly because I couldn't remember what he's/she's saying. That's distressing. Also I easily forget names and faces of people who had been recently introduced to me. And this is my weakness.

vanish without a trace







The other day he was here
Next day he's gone for real

reconciled

Finally. . . After eight long months, **** and I are back to being friends. Though we did not patch things up from what had happened before, we know that we don’t have to. No apology was needed, just an effortless hi-hello greeting. That would do.

We may not be as close as before, but things are better now. I couldn’t ask for anything more than that. I’m happy with what I have right now. And I can see that he’s doing good =)

I remember how I cried to God about this reconciliation. I can’t just throw a friendship like that (I wonder how other people deal with that). God just answered me. Hmmmmm. Isa nalang. I pray that, in no time, ****** and I can have that effortless hi-hello greeting, too. I’ll be soooooo at peace then =)