The Princess And Her Short Stories

who had i been for the past 365 days?

more of a daughter.
less of a sister.
►as much as i could, i tried to obey my parents. i never wanted to disappoint them in any way. they look up to me. and i love them so much. "do i make you proud?" - i'll save this question.
►on the other hand, have i been a good sister? not so.

more of a friend.
less of a student.
►with all the debut parties i've attended... nah! worn 8 dresses. worn out dresses. i was more of a socialite. i feel getting older. haha. i imagine myself with my amigas spending the wee hours in a coffee shop talking about our kids and marriage life. insanity life. haha.
►as for my studies, uhm, i didn't neglect it naman but, i was never a full time student. my Daydreaming class and Mexican class were far more attended than my regulars'.

more prayerful.
less faithful.
►i became closer to God even more. He was 24/7 on my recent dialled and i always needed Him by my side.
►but i became doubtful and less hopeful. reminding Him what i wanted in my life made me more skeptical, i guess. i admit He didn't have my 100% trust for the past year. and now, i realized that the best prayer is still "Your will be done". coz no matter how hard i pray, He will not give it to me if it is not according to His will.

more emotional.
less mental.
►yes i had been sooo emotional. my tears had wiped out all the debris in my eyes. and i made my lacrimal gland swelled many times. i thought crying would be the best remedy. though it has been. but it is not the only thing i would have done.
►where the hell did my brain go? haha. it was the best time i need it. thank goodness, i have brought it back again to its function. mind you.

more of being loved
less of getting hurt
►if i'm going to count the many people who love me, they are thousand times more than those few ones who caused me pain. i am over loved by Him, my parents, my family, and friends. i always feel that my life is so blessed when i think of them. they are my treasures, my precious gems.
►i've been hurt so many times. but to heaven are those people, for they let me gain strength, faith, and more importantly, love. honest to goodness, they were also my blessings.